It doesnt feel great at all.
Actually, it kinda sucks.
I've decided to share my issue a little bit.
But for the sake of some privacy...
Lets call them..
Red and Blue
Soooo.. I've known Red since I was twelve.
Its been a long time since then.
But, due to complicated situations.
He had to leave for a few years.
But I could NEVER forget about him ; NO MATTER WHAT !!
I met Blue about two years ago.
We became REALLY good friends.
Last year, WE both made a mistake.
And it caused someone a lot of pain.
There's no excuse for what happened.
But I believe, when you REALLY want something ; you SHOULD go for it.
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In October, Red came back.
I was hoping things would go back to the way they were.
And sure enough ; they did.
OCTOBER 22, 2008.
I didnt need anything but him.
Two months later, Blue contacts me.
I didnt know what to expect.
So ; I played it safe and didnt let it go anywhere.
I was in a relationship ; and I was there to stay.
But ; I couldnt help but think about Blue a little bit.
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Red and I broke up in January.
So a little while after that ; Blue and I started talking again.
It wasnt long before things went back to normal with him.
We became close again and everything was great.
The only problem is ; Red kept trying to come back into my life.
And I wasnt completely over him.
It is now ; MAY.
And it is just now registering that im in love with Red.
But im falling for Blue.
I have NEVER been this confused in my entire life.
I have been COMPLETELY knocked down.
And I dont know how to get back up.
"Say You Gotta Take The Good With Bad ;
Happy And The Sad ;
But Will You Bring You Bring A Better Future Than I Had In The Past ;
Oh Cause I Dont Wanna Make The Same Mistakes Again ;
I Dont Wanna Fall Back On My Face Again"
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